DAKKANYA

mm.... today feel quite happy and touched and also sad... yesterday nicky came to my house to stay... and then after tat the last mintue my mum ask him to go home.. cause she dun allow... but it is already 10+ and all hia family slp liao... so after tat... he go my house area playground to sleep... and i acc him till the middle of the night... and i am so angry with my parents... so... the next day... i overslept!! >< i was suppose to fetch him up at 7am but i fell asleep!!!>< and then he called me to tell me tat he is coming up to my place so i woke up a while to open the door for him and i continue went to bed and he went to bath... hehehe... after bathing... he sleep at the corner of my cupborad.. i was so sad so i ask him to sleep on my bed but he dun wan... till my dad opens his mouth liao then nicky go slp on my bed and we woke up at 10am.. hehehe... so i woke up to brush my teeth and then wash my face get changed and eat medicine then i go out liao.. and when we went down to the void deck of my house... i saw my 2nd aunt and 2nd uncle... so i went to say hi and we rush to the MRT cause we're going to be late.. when we were going to reach jurong east.. i saw a old fren... he got more and more good looking but more and more paikia... he is my god kor kor.. and now he studies at ITE BB taking engineering courses.. and i went to say hi to him... ^^... when we reach jurong east liao i sepreated with nicky cause he need to attend sth... then i saw eile mei mei and alec.. hehehe.. then i suan elie and disturb alec.. hahaa... after tat elie's hp rang then when i turn around.. I saw someone... and i walk away ... be4 tat i tell alec tat i go liao... so i sit at the control station tehre the whole 1hr 30mins to wait for nicky and then sth weird.. Elie mei mei ask mi where am i then i tell her where i am and then she hang up my phone liao... so i sms her tat tehre is sth that she dun wanna tell mi so she say nth and i cannot force her ma... so i say nvm... and when nicky came... we went to Lot1 to buy my lunch and then we take bus to his place... and we went to play game and eat then slp... then after tat we talk talk talk a lot and i fall asleep again... then at abt 7+ we watch tv till halfway... i suddenly got fever so nicky and i fell asleep cause no one at home since we got back... and i got a dream tat i collapse at his place and also nightmare and i got a shock so i never tok... and he took good care of me... he went to took a wet towel to clean my face and then when he tok to me i never reply him and he got worried till he cry... but i was there crying too but i control myself... ^^... then i wipe away his tears and i hug him... but i did cry a bit in the end... and i was jus feel so touched is tat he really cherish mi a lot and also care abt me a lot than how he treat their frens... and yesterday night he did say sth tat make me so touched is tat " You are the only gal that can let me see the moon whenever where we are at the night... i really got touched by those words so i already trying to be his best Girlfriend in his heart... i am actually trying to look after him and love him and protect him all the while,.... whenever he is angry... i try to make him cool down... and when he is sad... i try to wipe away his tears... i dun wan to see him cry... he told mi sth jus now at his place too and i gt touched again is tat "You're the only gal who i got worried till i'll cry" i REALLY REALLY need him tat much... cause ... i REALLY REALLY REALLY LOVE HIM!!! well... i think i stared to get changed a bit... and when he actually wanna fetch mi till jurong east but we saw his parents while we were on the way to the MRT station so he only fetch mi till his place MRT station.. and i went back home... while on the way back home i actually miss him a lot and i wanna see him... so i went back home and bath and called him... and he is already asleep but he insist of toking to me... so we tok for abt 10 mins then i put down the phone liao... haiz... but... on the way to the MRT station... i did not tok to him cause i got shock till cannot tok and he tell mi tat he will fetch me back home all the while when we're outside. but i sms him say nvm... jus dun anytime fetch me home... casue i dun wan him to kanna scold by his parents and i dun wan him to tire himself... cause i will xing tong de... T_T... ok la.. stop here liao... ^^... LOVE NICKY !!!!!! XDXD!!!!

things happen.... nowadays... dunno wth am i thinking... i lost 12 frens in my live... agn... and i tot tat nth is going to happen anymore and i also tot that they've changed... but ... i'm wrong... their still angry of me and also got neglected by me... but i really wanna changed them... but... i can't... i lose this courage.... and also... looking at my love one... i feel more and more sad and dun bear to leave him but to be with him till th end of my life.. but... i still dunno how am i going to tell him tomorrow... cause i noe this is not the time yet... but i wanna tell him... if not i cannot promsise him tat i will not cry anymore... but if i tell him... wad will he react?? he will be asking me to bring him along,... but if i go there... i may be back alive... or i will not be back.. but... i really wanna go help them... to change them... looking at my bf with a smile at me all the time... i feel more better and also dun wanna leave him... it;s like... i have the feeling tat i wanna stay with him with the rest of my life... protect him... encourage him and also love him with wad i can ... like wad i wanna say to him... "i love u so much and i will try my very best to be ur best person u loved... my dear..." feel like crying... i reach my limits... i wanna collapse... but i can't... i dun wanna leave him alone and let him worry abt me... if i look at him like this i feel more and more and MORE MORE depressed and wanna kill myself... and i dun wanna see this scene right infront of my eyes and feelings... i jus wan him to be as happy as ever... and energetic as ever and also loved me with all his heart.. and i really LOVE HIM A LOT ... i can't bear to leave him... even we had troubles... we are happy together... and it's like.. as if nth happen at all... if both of us are worried for each otehr... all we can do is to hug each other and try to forget abt it... but... this time... i will try to tell him the truth.. and tell him everything tat wad is in my mind and be a best gf as i can to protect him... encourage him and also make him smile all the time... and i promise tat " I WILL NOT FAL TO SMILE AT U ANYMORE" i failed to do tat at times... but i wanna show tat to him... well... i stop here.... update next time... (i will try to be a winderful gf as i can and love u with all my heart... to make u happy all the way... my loved...)

Hi! i'm back.... how ya pple doing??? happy?? sad??? stressed??? well... i can say tat lots of thing happen this days and also i dunno wad to do and all i hve to do now is to be happy as ever like the usual of Shumin!! ^_^;;... but niw... i can say tat i am no longer the squall... i started to do things more and more worse... and i dun een noe wad am i doing recently and lost 2 frens already... jus because got beaten up... it's the same pple... my ex frens... well... i think tat they are still angry of me cause i leave them alone and jus make new frens... haiz... i dunno wad to do... i wanna tokl to them! but... will they listen?? they will jus vent the anger on me and my frens jus to let mi noe how they suffer without the joy with mi in the past... and also... i've tok to them a few days ago... and they say tat... "u tell me wad we have done to make u leave us... f u can tell s y we will jus stop all this bashing..." i told them tat... i jus wanna leave u pple cause i dun wanna cause trouble for them... and they still dun wanna listen... well... i dun really noe wad to do... i broke my bf promise that i went to find them... but i told him abt it and he is not angry at all... but i feel bad... haiz... wad done has done... nth will change... well... i go liao i got to go and watch my... N A R U T O !!!! bye!~~~!!! ^_^V

yo pple... long time no see... hehe... so long never update my blog liao... haha cause.... psst psst (lazy =X) hehe... well... there is sth strange abt mi... cause many things happen... and one of my fren is dead and i did not cry but sad... it's as if i have no tears.... haiz... =( well.... i have nth to type liao cause... i jus woke up... huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy... ^_^;; bye bye

halo... today my mood is a bit sad.... cause... sth happen... today i went out in the afternoon to meet WingZ and Kuroshi... then when i reach Orchard.. i call WingZ and she call mi to fin dkuro... when i meet kuro... i went up to the library to find WingZ and i also went to read some books... there is an interesting book call THE CRUSADER.... quite interesting... and i've read for 2 chapters.... hehe... then after reding for a while i go find WingZ and Kuro... and we went to go for a walk then we meet Yunnie and we went to walk walk and also went to see some clothes... i wanna find a pants... and it TOOk mi a long time to find my pants.. then i went to a shop and saw a cargo pants... QUite nice... but u noe how much??? FREAKIN $55!!!!! WHAT THE HELL!!! then after tat i and WingZ go liao... hahaa then the rest blur blur... hehehe... then i and WingZ are grumbling abt that jeans... lol... then after tat we went to a shop to buy pants... end up i got the pants tat i wan... hehe... quite nice... =P... then i went to change .. hehe... nice... then i bought that pants liao then WingZ saw a shirt very nice then she push yunnie to the fitting room to change it... then yunnie came out liao... the shirt she wear very nice~!!! then WingZ help Yunnie pay for the shirt first... and we head to Cuppage Plaza to meet yC, Sotong, NIC,Salad.Shia-chan,Inuran,Kuro,Yunnie, Schudig and Tama... then we eat and eat and eat and laugh... haha... cause of Kuro Hentai Jokes... lol... then after tat we went to play POOL... muahahahaha.... i lost... =( cause i only shoot 3 balls in... =(... then after tat... we saw WingZ holding the CUE to POKE PPLE ARSE.... LOL!!! esp salad... hahaha... then after a while... kuro joke start again... he put he CUe on his front there and shouted... "SIT ON ME" hahahahah.... then we all laughing like helll... cause LONG ma... LOL!!!... we played for 1 hour then after tat we went home... and SOTONG KEPT ON CALLING MI BOUNCING BRICK!!!! T_T STUPID JUENG KU!!! well... i DID enjoy... but... when i saw Tama or standing near him... he avoided mi,.... and somemore... when i go to SHia's table there when eatung sushi.... then TAMA use the MANGA to cover his face... i feel it a bit... haiz.. forget it... but now i need to worried is my LETTER.... I NEED THE ITE LETTER!!! U WANNA STUDY!! I WANNA WANNA WANNA WANNA WANNA STUDY!!! SERIOUS!!! I HOP TOMOLO I WILL GOT IT!!! I WANNAAAAAAAAAAAAA STUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUDY!!!! REEEEEEEEEEEALLY!!!! T_T

YOO YOO... back back... hehehe... THE NEW YEAR COUNTDOWN WAS GREAT!!!! first... i went out in the morning and then only yunnie and zio were at orchard... and then after tat we went to go and buy tickets to watch... JUON2 !!!! then i and Yunnie and zio sittign at the corner slacking.. then after tat... salad came... followed by Kuro and then OZ then after tat we tok tok tok till i am asleep and KURO took my PIC!!! ~_~ then after tat we went into the cinema... then we saw this GABTSY advertisement again... then... we starte to laugh... cause too funny for us la... then when they show starts... slalad was sooooooooooo quiet... hahaha... mi also la... then after tat we watch till thise best part... slad cover his face with his shirt and still can see through the screen so he close his eyes... lol... after the show.... we all toking abt JUON then after tat i went to the toilet... then... i saw a american women carrying a baby... then i tell yunnjie abt it she say tat.... it's a doll... hahaha... i paiseh nth to say... hahaha... then after tat we went to go walk walk then after tat i found out tat my $10 gon then after tat i call my mum then she pass it to mi at bugis... hehehe... then after tat we went to meet senti's group then after tat i saw a lot of pple there and JIE was there toO!!! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! then i tok to her and i saw her cry so later she hug mi she cry... ia slo cry a bit... but i controlling it... then when she go back liao i really cried... but no one noes... hehehe... but end up i control it again... hahaha... after the picnic... we went to meet Taku's group... then followed my kazu's group so we went for the countdown... but.. we got SEPREATED AGAIN!!! T_T so only left mi zio schu yunnie and also kuro only.. then after tat we cannot find them so we end up countdown by a few frens,,, haiz... then after tat we go home... i saw my bro and his fren thomas... then i tot they going home end up they never go home so we wait for salad,,, then i saw salad with a very SICK face.. and i got a bit worried... and then later when i was going home... i saw zio in a Sick face... and i got worried by the both of them... and then i went home... when i was in the train... i heard a gal say tat the train is to BOON LAY!!! then i was... OH SHIT!!! then i faster get down at outram park... lol... and then i went home safely... and then... when i get home... i onlinme a while then go slp liao... ok la!~~ i nth to say liao ... i wanna go watch tv and then online again then play game then chat on phone and also play PS2 games...~~ whee~~~ i still worried at my sch... i HOPE i can go to my FAVOURITE COURSE~~~!!!!

back back... yesterday was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fun!!!!! i got a cosplay yesterday... hahaa... yesterday Kamui gave mi a morning call... then i shout at him cause i tot tat my fren is trying to disturb mi... hehehehe... then after tat i call back to him and tell him say sorry... lol... then after tat i went to tanah merah to meet Victor and taku electra and shin and one more(dunno who) hehehe... then after tat mi shin electra and victor went to expo together... then shin ask victor "may i whack ginji later?" then i was... nth to say lo... then after tat i met my group... then i pass my knife to Akabane san and then after tat i saw the kazuki bells are DAMN small then in a coincidence... i got the bells with mi... Official one then after tat i lend it to her and then i help her toe.. hehhe.. it looks so good then after tat raitei wanna spray my hair to yellow... then i say noooooooooooooooo... then after tat.. mi raitei and victor goand pay for the admission fee... then after tat i saw my tailor cosplaying as the Ragnorak online character and her fren likes ginji soooooooo much and she pinch mi say... U ARE SOOOOOOOO CUTE... ^//^... hahaha... then after tat i was over there playing all the way... took all my groups weapon and play... hehhe.... esp akabane san... =P AKABANE san cahse mi jus wanna fight with mi.... --"... i scared la... so i run... XD... then after tat we sit at the hall there to see the others cosplayers on stage ... and... IT'S THE AS TIME.... !!! hehe.. a gal... gave us sweets and chocolates... wheeeeeeeee~~~ the getbackers got it!!! ONLY!!! xP after tat i went to see n3ph playing GGX... then i saw my jie sapphire... hehehe.... then she cheer for mi and... i lsoe... -_-""" hehehe... after the game i went back to find my group and... it's the GGX turn!!! i saw my jie cosplaying as millia my mei as Ino... muahahahaha... soooooooooooooo nice!!! and when my jie wanna pose.... the MC go intterupt.... IW#$()*#)@*()@#%*@#... then my jie is a but pissed off liao lo.... haiz... too bad.... then after the cosplay... i went to habve a group photo woth my group and... they WHACK mi... T_T then i ask them that WHO WANNA WHACK mi come here... salad say... REALLY AR!?!? hen he act like WWE ... uses his butt on my face.... FOR FUN La... wa lau... then i was like... "-_-"""" hahahaha.... then after tat i help WingZ to tidy up the stall tehre and then we go eat liao... then i say my mei crying soooo bad and my heart pain... well... i am kinda sad cause.... when i really really wanna help my mei she dun wanan tell mi... aiya... nvm la... she has her own reasons... hehehe... then after tat mi mark jk and sotong wingz shia yC and Kuro went to TM to eat ... after tat... zio and salad came.. hehe... after having our dinner... we went to the arcade to play... and we never saw salad and zio... dunno where they gone... hehe... then we think that both of them went home liao... so we go play... hehehe... after tat we go home liao lo... hahaha... ok la... nth to tok liao... haha...